Freed From the Tower, I Must Learn To Fly

Sun, 14 Dec 2008 21:51:58 GMT

Definitely burnt myself out this semester.
Didn't help that i had to deal with two asshats in lab six hours a week. I mean, I can deal with people who don't want to do their share of the work, but when they start blaming me because the "group" fell behind schedule and then the grad student instructors say that I wasn't diligent enough, I get a little frustrated.
:: sighs ::
sometimes i think i should just forget about this school. get a job and start paying back the millions of dollars i owe (okay, maybe not millions, but with LIBOR like it is, i'm sure i'll hit the million mark rapidly, LOL)
ugh
oh well. i guess if the school doesn't kick me out after this semester, i'll just stay and muddle my way through something easy.
:: glares at his other professor :: and that idiot didn't answer my question :(

Thu, 04 Dec 2008 05:27:48 GMT

a degree from the chem department isnt worth the paper its printed on
isnt even worth the ink used to print the words on the degree
ugh
stupid people who sit there and rely on you to do everything but then get pissed when the group falls behind. ummm, hello, drag your own weight then and dont rely on me to drag it for you

and i have three finals on the same day again.

sometimes, i think god hates me.
or at least the people in the office that schedule final exam times >.

Fri, 10 Oct 2008 21:41:48 GMT

i hate school. i hate the idiots i have to go to class with everyday. i hate the same idiots who even dare think that they are intelligent when they aren't. i mean, seriously, dilutions are not made with beakers. nothing is made with beakers. you store liquids in beakers, you dont measure liquids with beakers. and you need the initial weight of a sample in order to calculate weight percent. and no, you cannot just assume that the density of a salicylic acid solution is close to water. worse case scenario, just mass out some fresh samples so you at least get some idea of what the initial sample weight was. ugh
i hate my lab class. i really hate it.
i hate the students here. or at least the ones who are just here for a fucking degree. ugh, is it really that difficult to learn stuff while you are here?
and i am a blanket hatred of freshmen. without exception. stupid idiots.

ok, i think im done venting. time to go to my room to pack and go home
so i can waste more time there. blah.

Tue, 16 Sep 2008 00:42:55 GMT

got a new mac. enjoying it immensely. probably going to install latex or something else to replace word on it soon.

already had my first sleepless night. not a good omen :(

i miss my friends :(

Thu, 28 Aug 2008 05:14:21 GMT

i want some Luxemburgerli.

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 18:31:44 GMT

Berlin was an okay city, I guess. After being in Zurich and surrounded by German for so long, it didn't really bother me that I was surrounded by German while I was there. Except for the area by the Reichstag, Berlin seemed...uninspiring. Even the grassy field in front of the Reichstag was dull. And the city was dirty and smelly. We couldn't take five steps without catching another whiff of sewage (although we never saw any - must have been coming up from the sewers). The areas in East Berlin were even worse. And the public transportation system...the trains still need some upgrading and most of the stations could use some major renovations. But then, I guess that is what happens when the government has to spend a lot of the budget on reincorporating East Germany. Overall though, I did enjoy it.

Amsterdam was nothing like I anticipated - Berlin seemed significantly better moments after I stepped off the train at Amsterdam Centraal. The entire city just seems dingy. The canal water is completely opaque and most of the canals have some trash floating through them. The streets, besides being extremely narrow, could use major re-paving/re-stoning. You can barely walk five feet without smelling another "coffeeshop". The city has a very laisser-faire, which I enjoy, but it seems that the people here have stopped caring about almost everything. Now I'm quite happy that we are leaving tomorrow afternoon for Paris.

Thu, 24 Jul 2008 18:08:12 GMT

Will be leaving for Berlin from Basel at 15:04 :-D

Thu, 17 Jul 2008 14:31:35 GMT

so after adjusting to the culture shock...zurich is turning out to be a pretty nice place...i'm even slowly starting to understand some german, haha. the trams are kinda interesting to ride. yes, trams, not subways, not buses, but cars that run off of electricity provided from the overhead wires, LOL. you can drink from almost all of the city's water fountains too...LOL.

had dinner at a restaurant on top of the uetliberg last night...had to take a train up there....fantastic view...and if it wasn't so humid we could
have seen the alps too >.< but we had a fantastic view of the lake, city, and countryside. talking with one of the women there, she said zürich is one of the fastest cities in europe. i was a little surprised, since it seems really slow to me (except when people are running late for a train, LOL)

this saturday might be a trip to bern...if the weather holds...get to see the swiss bears, LOL

as for next weekend, could involve a trip to CERN....if not, then i think we are going to Paris through Genève....maybe i should translate that note from DHL so we can figure out how to get the train tickets, LOL

back to learning german while waiting for the washer and dryer to finish (it takes at least an hour for the washer to finish and over two for the dryer >.<).

Mon, 07 Jul 2008 11:59:09 GMT

more to help me not get lost than anything else, haha

Kappeli
Freihofstrasse
Letzigrund
Albisriederplatz
Zypressenstrasse
Lochergut
Kalkbreite
Bezirksgebäude
Stauffacher
Sihlstrasse
Paradeplatz

if i can keep those straight, i hopefully won't get too lost, LOL
especially paradeplatz. a lot of the trams go through paradeplatz.
>.

Mon, 07 Jul 2008 05:33:00 GMT

i wish i knew german :: le sighs ::
at least im slowly learning, HAHA

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 17:19:23 GMT

So, I depart from Detroit Metro for Frankfurt at 3:50 PM on 04 July.
I arrive in Frankfurt at 5:55 AM on 05 July only to depart for Zurich at 7:40.
Traveling Lufthansa, Business Class, so it should be comfortable. And yeah for friends who get discounts because they work with the EU :-D

school sucks. i need a break :(
life sucks. i want a break :(
why didn't i get any emails even though i was logged into my email account? stupid computer.
oh well, life moves on. i hate it.

excited excited excited excited excited excited excited excited excited excited

Mon, 02 Jun 2008 23:31:11 GMT

stressed out of my mind
asshole decided he was going to take his name off the cable account...problem is he was stupid and did tell me about it much less ask me to go with him to the payment center so the account can be transferred to my account. now im without internet. dont know if thats a good or bad thing though.

two essays and two exams this week

no idea where my loan paperwork is...limbo seems like a pretty safe bet at the moment. although that could depend on which computer system the bank checks -.-

most definitely going to zurich as soon as my passport comes in

i am so tired i want to fall asleep -.-

Sun, 18 May 2008 21:52:54 GMT

instead of visit...i could live there for a couple months i guess
first things first, time to finally get a passport -.-

Mon, 12 May 2008 15:52:57 GMT

im a stubborn bitch. but im lazy :(
i have a chance to visit zurich this summer if i wanted...hmmmmmm
i dont think i would want to come back though, HAHA
oh well. and i hate writing. blah.

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 22:57:10 GMT

my daddy was just laid off.

hmmmmm

shit -.-

time to talk to financial aid. and see what i can do about rent. and where is that damn job already?

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 22:41:09 GMT

so it has been decided....biochemistry and biophysics with some medchem thrown into the mix

Required for Biochemistry Major:

Biology 205 (3 Credits): Genetics
Chemistry 241 (2 Credits): Introduction to Chemical Analysis
Chemistry 242 (2 Credits): Introduction to Chemical Analysis Laboratory
Chemistry 260 (3 Credits): Chemical Principles
Chemistry 302 (3 Credits): Inorganic Chemistry: Principles of Structure, Reactivity, and Function
Biological Chemistry 451 (4 Credits): Introduction to Biological Chemistry I
Biological Chemistry 452 (4 Credits): Introduction to Biological Chemistry II
Biological Chemistry 453 (3 Credits): Biophysical Chemistry I: Thermodynamics and Kinetics
Biological Chemistry 454 (3 Credits): Biophysical Chemistry II: Macromolecular Structure and Dynamics
Medicinal Chemistry 409 (3 Credits): Drug Assay
Medicinal Chemistry 410 (3 Credits): Principles of Medicinal Chemistry I
MCDB 428 (4 Credits): Cell Biology
MCDB 429 (3 Credits): Laboratory in Cell and Molecular Biology

Required for Biophysics Major:

Mathematics 217 (4 Credits): Linear Algebra
Mathematics 463 (3 Credits): Mathematical Modeling in Biology
Chemistry 241 (2 Credits): Introduction to Chemical Analysis
Chemistry 242 (2 Credits): Introduction to Chemical Analysis Laboratory
Chemistry 260 (3 Credits): Chemical Principles
Physics 340 (3 Credits): Waves, Heat, and Light
Physics 390 (3 Credits): Introduction to Modern Physics
Physics 401 (3 Credits): Intermediate Mechanics
Physics 405 (3 Credits): Intermediate Electricity and Magnetism
Physics 406 (3 Credits): Statistical and Thermal Physics
Physics 413 (3 Credits): Introduction to Nonlinear Dynamics and the Physics of Complexity
Physics 417 (3 Credits): Dynamical Processes in Biology
Physics 453 (3 Credits): Quantum Mechanics

Total Number of Credits Needed: 65 Credit Hours

i nearly had a heart attack....some awesome classes in there, hehe....ill probably thrown in as much math as i possibly can in the process, LMAO

o, and if im here another 6 semesters, per the current plan, thats a maximum possible 108 credits i can still take. so it can be done. just, do i want to? :: stares at quantum mechanics :: yes

Tue, 15 Apr 2008 21:06:07 GMT

biochemistry major
and a physics major
possibly biophysics

yes, i am that crazy. thank you.

o, yeah, thats because im stuck here another three years -.-

Wed, 09 Apr 2008 21:05:04 GMT

i hate japanese.

i fucking knew that the last couple weeks of my semester were going to be absolute hell. hence the reason why, when my partners and i met (the one time we did meet) to work on our japanese projected, i made the obvious comment that the syllabus said the a "script", not an "outline" was due several weeks ago. of course, aforementioned partners did not so much as acknowledge my comment, so they continued writing the script and i, per the norm in such situations, just stopped talking to them.

now that the presentation is in two days, its my fucking fault that nobody in the group has seen the entire script yet. im the one being unfair to my partners by not giving them enough time to memorize the script. of course, its not my fault that the idiots put anything and everything in their lives ahead of the script when the project was assigned, i.e. when i had the time to work on it. so yeah, fucking idiots. and now the professor hates me. go figure. oh well, two more weeks and i can tell her to roast in fucking hell :-D

other than that, classes are fine. just have to make one more graphic in physics lab and i am forever done with that class. one more assignment in chemistry and physics and i can then i can start studying for my finals. except, i still have an essay for biology lab to write (due monday at 5) and the biology quiz on friday. hmmmm, i think i will finish the physics lab first, write the biology paper (all tonight). then study for the last japanese quiz ever tomorrow before class (for the record, i hardly get any sleep). then study for the biology quiz tomorrow night. finish chemistry (reaction kinetics and dr. octavius, LMAO) and physics (yeah special relativity!) over the weekend. then over the week i will split my time between japanese and chemistry. that will give me plenty of time to study for physics...which is going to be impossible -.-

ugh, fucking japanese professor can go to hell.

Tue, 01 Apr 2008 21:55:51 GMT

i hate the weather. i was in my room, naked, after my shower, with the window open this morning, and it felt great.

and then i walk out of starbucks and its like, when the hell did it get so cold?!?!

stupid weather

two projects
two lab reports
one paper

thats what remains of my semester, outside the normal routine

Mon, 24 Mar 2008 21:26:13 GMT

you know you are a dork when you know the permittivity of free space....by memory

ugh

when did i become so devoted to physics?!?!?!?!

Fri, 21 Mar 2008 00:16:30 GMT

i hate japanese....the teacher yells at me because i dont come to class prepared....i want to scream at her, "sorry, whore, but unlike all these asian studies majors in here, i have classes before this one....that require CRITICAL THINKING....something i can't do in japanese....so stop fucking comparing me to these lazy assholes when im doing better than most of them on the quizzes and homework"

skdjghalksuhglkadjHkh

the whore
i hate her
and now i hate japanese. ugh.

in other news...my homework is done for the week
i may or may not be dating someone at the moment...i dont quite know
did i mention i want to kill my japanese professor?
im broke and looking for a job....sent out two applications today...ugh
ugh, now to get back to converting my music library to mp3/watcing naruto

Sat, 15 Mar 2008 21:29:51 GMT

and then sometimes, the only solution is the radical solution.

oh well.

Wed, 20 Feb 2008 06:11:19 GMT

downward spirals....spiraling downward, out of control.
and i hate it even more that i am completely helpless in preventing it.
and i hate it even more that i am completely helpless by my own choice.
but then, it was either that or spiral downward myself. heh.

on a side note, classes are killing me.
literally, LOL.

o, and im not really this depressed, LOL
just, moping before going to sleep.

Mon, 18 Feb 2008 01:13:36 GMT

im slowly coming to the conclusion that being gay and being in love are mutually exclusive.
its as if god really does exist and hates all homosexuals...punishing them by denying them love...

oh well.

Tue, 05 Feb 2008 01:09:24 GMT

and because im in a crazy mood, a picture i took recently...
i actually kinda really like it, hence the reason im posting it
and because most of you probably wouldnt recognize me anymore, HAHA, considering i do nothing but lock myself away in my room and study
kristin, you might want to not look, HAHA